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[kriszeth]

i wrote this forhilaryscribbles a little while ago and as i'm still battling to death with how to let go... also because this is my first finished akame fic, so, enjoy?

at the end of the rainbow

 

 

 

it is an ungodly hour and kame should be asleep already since he´ll have to be up in a couple hours, but his internal clock doesn't seem to give a shit about schedules.

 the light of his laptop emphasizes the lines on his face, turning his features gauntly and haggard. kame places his chin on the knee he hugs to his chest and sighs, stare still fixed on the contents of nishiyama maki's blog, the words going round and round inside his head.

 According to the rest of the world my good friend is my darling!

 the pictures of a necklace and a ring mock him as he remembers the only real matching jewelry jin shared with him being long outwear-ed, like their relationship.

 "so, i guess this is serious, ne jin?" he murmurs softly, battle weary and defeated and he gives up. "it's finally over"

 he knows johnny will not permit such displays and the entry will be deleted once the agency finds out, but that won't change the fact that akanishi jin is dating a model and it's not like he's paying attention to tabloids, but the fact that he's seen jin himself wearing a necklace with that same design.

 the lcd screen goes blank in sleep mode and kame blinks once, twice, until his eyelids drop completely.

 -----

 "here" jin throws something that he catches only by reflex, since he's not properly awake yet (just where is koki with his coffee?)

 KAT-TUN had an early meeting to go over what the press conference for jin's return is going to be like, what to say and how to say it and 'please, remember to be polite but brief', which was most likely directed at jin, so kame took the time to space out.

 in his hands is one of those little paper bags they give you on souvenirs stores when you buy something.

 "what is it?" he mumbles and watches how jin's cheeks blush prettily, or it may be the powder some make up girl applied on him, since he's already done.

 it makes kame blink curiously since jin looks embarrassed and almost but no quite pouting and he tries not to tear the paper bag with his sluggish movements, shaking it a little so its contents come into his palm. kame blinks again at multicolored beads and then stares questioningly at jin.

his bandmate's flush reaches the point of his ears. "it's a joke, ok? some of my friends on LA saw some pics of you and me on internet when they discovered i was kinda famous on japan and thought it'd be funny to send you something. they got me one, too"

a warm smile spreads over kame's lips and jin looks a little happier and less contrite. "thank you, jin. and send my regards to your friends, tell them i really liked it"

 kame's smile on the conference is the bigger one out of all his band mates.

 -----

 akame is back. or so everyone likes to make out of the new publishing stunt cartoon kattun's producer has going on. kame thinks maybe things are getting better with jin, not that things were ever really bad between them, but sometimes kame wonders how much of the camaraderie the two of them share is just thanks to cameras and photo shoots and how much are real feelings.

 "you really like it, don't you? that necklace" ueda musses one day after one of their practices for the BtR concerts. kame almost shocks on the gulp of water he was taking from his bottle , coughing a couple of times, gaining attention from nakamaru, who pats his back a little worried until kame makes a hand gesture to sing he's ok, his eyes watering a little.

 he wants to sqash ueda's curiosity before this conversation gains more audience, specially since there's someone he does not want to take notice of his necklace.

 "what? this little thing? i found it a while ago in my jewelry box, i thought i'd better use it before i forget his existence again" kame tries to sound indifferent, but by now koki and junno have approached them and are touching the little beads in wonder.

 "looks like you've become very attached to it, since you even used it on the shoots for the Kami no Shizuku photobook" koki says and junno looks at him weirdly.

 "how do you know what kame wears in the photobook? it hasn't been released yet" nakamaru points and koki shrugs.

 "kame showed me the pics" he explains and junno asks kame if he can see them too, which makes nakamaru and ueda want to see them too, so an impromptu reunion at kame's apartment is organized, appointing who'll bring the booze (junno), the snacks (junno), and whatever else that may gain their fancy (junno again).

 kame shudders with the daunting sensation of someone staring at him hard, but he tries to ignore it by joining the ruckus his bandmates make.

 "coming akanishi?" ueda asks the lone occupant on the other side of the room, packing his things.

 "sorry" jin answers, pulling his bag on his shoulders and hurrying to the door. "the guys and i are planning something for yamapi's birthday, so... i'm already late."

 "ok, bye!" ueda waves and the others bid him farewells before going back to bickering on what else to bring to kame's apartment.

 kame can only feel this big empty feeling that he tries to squash later with beer.

 -----

 "have you seen akanishi-san?" some AD asks them and they shook their heads.

 KAT-TUN is in the middle of a photoshoot for a Myojo issue this june, but the BtR concerts have taken their tool on them all, specially kame with the backslash of bad ratings from his last drama, guest appearances in his sempai's drama and starring Gokusen the Movie.

 kame thinks he should care a little more for akanishi-san's disappearing act, since this'll only make this photoshoot be longer, and in consequence make him late to his next appointment, of which he does not know the nature of nor does he care (thank god for managers), but he's too tired to go look for jin and lecture him about responsibilities and what not.

 he's in that land called drowsiness when he wonders if what he's hearing is real or if it's only a figment of his delusion and wanting.

 "is it only me or you can see how resemble kazuya's rainbow necklace with jin's anklet?" what seems to be junno's voice asks before it gets shushed promptly.

 "it really looks similar" someone whispers.

 "so, do you really think is a match? like, are they really back to being rabu-rabu?" another familiar voice wonders.

 there's a little hum of thinking and then "i don't think so. if that was the case, akanishi would be all over kame. he's not the best known for his prudence or subtlety, after all."

 there is a general consensus and then his manager is telling him to get up, they're late already as it is and that little conversation gets forgotten in a corner of his mind.

 -----

 ... or so he thought, because it comes back a month after when he leafs through that june issue of Myojo in the combiny near his parent's  house on his first free weekend this year (and probably the last), before the tour begins and it stays with him through sound checks and concert rehearsals in whatever venue they're performing at and kame wonders.

 it's not as if he didn't know jin had something that matched his necklace, but more like if he has changed the anklet quite often as an accessory, or if he has worn his all the time like the one kame wears. maybe it's just a coincidence. and maybe he's thinking too much.

 he needs to calm down and sleep a little, like his bandmate on the bed near his, whose identity is probably the reason why kame can't sleep at all in the first place (damn johnny, doesn't KAT-TUN earn enough to have single rooms by now?).

 the sheets rustle when akanishi changes his position and kame freezes, doesn't even dare to breath as if caught doing something naughty, like thinking (what if jin can hear his thoughts?!) and only when jin settles down comfortably does kame release the breath he didn't know he was keeping. he really needs to calm down.

 there is this little habit he has aqcuired this year to reach for his necklace and toy with it until whatever preocupies him follows its own path, the motion calming him somehow. so he's not surprised when his hand travels the path to his neck, but kame frowns when something feels amiss there. he rises up straight when he doesn't feel his necklace and turns on the lamp beside his bed to see if it got tangled in his pillow or the mattress and where is it? don't tell him he lost it and...

 "what are you doing?" jin asks getting up, his voice is hoarse with sleep as a fist rubs sleepy eyes before they blink to try and accommodate to the light in the room. kame is in the process of tearing  the sheets from the bed and jin's brow furrow.

 "i lost it!" kame almost shrieks, a little hysterical, because he had it when he took a bath a couple hours ago and now it's gone.

 jin watches him put everything upside down in the room for a while before asking the obvious. "what did you lose?"

 kame gets down on his knees to look under his bed. "my necklace, the one you gave me when you came back from LA. i know i had it when i took my bath, i never take it off but i can't find it. i lost it, i…"

 tears blur his eyes and kame can't talk around the lump forming in his throath and jin is still on his bed, looking adorably clueless and sleepy and he lost it, the last gift jin gave him (three years, three months, twelve days and ten hours ago), he knew he shouldn't have worn it ever, should have let it root beside his pinky ring on that jewellry box he bought specially to keep them.

 "… oh" jin says and how can he say only that?! doesn't he care? a little vioce inside kame shrieks and obviously no another mourns.

 jin gets up clumsily and stumbles towards the bathroom and kame stays where he is, still on his knees beside his bed and sniffs a little and how could he be so careless as to lose his necklace?

 how could he be so stupid as to believe jin cared either way?

 even if jin's relationship with nishiyama hadn't worked out, it didn't mean there was a chance of the jin and him getting back together, since jin had been hitting the dance clubs and bars even after every concert, maybe he had found someone else already and-and-and…

 "here" his necklace dangles in front of him and kame takes it, crushing it to his chest relieved and finally let's the tears fall. jin takes a seat on kame's bed and ruffles kame's locks of hair away from his face to look at him properly, his voice soft and warm. "i found it in the bathroom when i was taking a shower. i think it's broken so you should get it fixed"

 kame's sobs turn into hiccups soon and now he feels embarrased for losing it over a necklace. "sorry for waking you up" he mumbles, cheek finding a pillow on jin's knee, he receives a little hum in answer while long fingers comb his just dyed hair.

 "you should have dyed your hair back when filming gokusen" jin says, and then in a teasing tone "hayato liked it better this color"

kame feels a flush warming his face.

 "it's not like hayato was there to whine about it to ryu" kame retorts, licking his suddenly dry lips. jin laughs this time, making a little smile appear on kame's mouth, who looks down to find something that catches his interest.

 jin's hand on his hair freezes when kame touches his ankle. "this…" kame whispers and looks up kittenishly, all doe-like eyes, lashes still wet from his tears and cheeks adorably flushed. jin gulps.

kame bits his lip at not getting an answer and wonders if he should have just kept his mouth shut after all, because even if he wants to ask about it, he's afraid it'll break the atmosphere between them, when it's been so long since the last time they were like this, all peace and warm and content.

 "you don't have to tell me if you don't want to" kame finally says, looking down once again and feels more than hear jin's chuckle, before the fingers on his scalp continue combing his hair.

 "that… I've been using it on and off since i got it, but it's been a little more than a month since i took it off"

 "…oh" kame says, a little surprised. maybe is not so farfetched to still have hope after all, he thinks, another smile curving his lips at hearing jin's honest answer. 

oblivious to his hand devices, kame plays with the anklet. the skin under his fingertips is warm and soft, despite the coarse hair in jin's leg and kame wiggles a little, feeling content and sleepy like a cat in front of a fireplace, looking for a better position to place his cheek so his neck won't kill him tomorrow the more drowsy he gets with jin's petting. there's another chuckle and then jin's hands are under his armpits trying to get him up, making him wobble on his own feet (he must be more tired than he thought).

 "come, let's get you to bed" jin whispers on his ear, sending little shivers down his spine while maneuvering him towards the other  bed (since his own bed is a mess). jin lies him down and then climbs after him, putting the covers up the two of them.

 "it's summer, it'll be hot" kame mumbles more asleep than awake now, trying to take down the covers and at the same time cuddling to jin, which earns him another chuckle from his bandmate when he decides to use jin's shoulder as a pillow.

 "sleep tight, kazu" jin says, fingers still combing his hair and a kiss in placed on kame's temple.

 kame's last thought before the sandman takes him to dreamland is that he hopes johnny places them together more often.

 
 

ok, so unbeta-ed and all that- editz, please? also comments, because i need something to boost my ego at the moment

Comments

[fionnakreuz.livejournal.com]

FLUFFFFFF. Me likes it. A lot. ♥

[kriszeth.livejournal.com]

no that i reread this is so ugh. so many mistakes and everything. if you want fluffy, you should go and read love is as easy as flowers. if you stand akira/nobuta that is