i also was all, oijdjuewkj, i'm a deranged akame fangirl, why jennipher, why? T_______________T but couldn't stop casting je boys as horses/indians/cadets. i.am.so.screwed. specially since i could only think about how much i wanted that je!spirit fic with jin starring as a horse, and guys, it would be perfect. perfect i tell you.
in other news, yay, week off! \o/ and just because i can YAY, ASHI'S FIC IS AWESOME! \o/
not really much to say, really. just wanted to update because i want to make myself write again. i haven't begun writing on my notebook. i want to wait until april to begin as to have a sense of time, since i don't really like to put dates on my entries. i'm weird like that, must explain why my room is always a disaster, but i'm all bleh right now. ::looks around at the mess and cringes at thinking she has to clean. someday. preferably soon, but not now::
how's everyone doing, btw? i'm waiting impatiently for blue-orbs to update In his care. so want it now. i'm gonna take my pc to fix. well, the other one. and i want a net book, but must save money for it. i have only half of it.kjsdioqw, why so expensive?
and as i am random, have you read this? i'm kinda miffed about it. not because of kame being likely a homosexual, but because of kusano and that josh guy's dickness. i want to smack them real hard, dunno why.
thinking about that, i've discovered i'm freakishly attracted to gay men, which does not spells a good outlook in my relationship, but i can't help it guys! ::whines:: i mean, let's take a looks at my most favorite singers in the entire world.
( of gay singers that made me want in his pants. except for the first one.. also, skip if you don't undesrtand or care for spanish songs. )
really, sometimes i wish i was born a man if only to make a pass at some of this guys.
also, there are missing the gay english singers i am in love with. we will skip the japanese, since the title of this journal says enough about it.
and to finish this entry a gift of kame:
kjdioqwjeioqw, i am really screwed.
as some of you may have noticed, i tend to send comments in my post since i'm too lazy to go and reply on your entries, so please bear with me.
to silver_ryu , i knew there was a reason why i feared your lj, even if it's just your work related one. i ended up being all @w@ after i went to see who was deltadedirac. also, i just noticed you're from spain. así que tambien hablas español?
to grapewhine , i went and decided to steal this link outta your lj because jin quotes are awesome. also, hope your familiar situation gets better (though i'm not sure what was the problem), and if not, ey! as you said, there's always the option of moving out. ::wink, wink::
to koneho , you write like this and expect me to believe your normal? sorry, but not happening. ok, leaving that aside, i tend to forget that outside the internet people have real normal lives, not that you're abnormal or something. most of your post are cheery, so reading a post about your current rl problems is what threw me off. with this i'm not saying i'm gonna defriend you or anything, because those actually make me learn something about the real you, and even when it sometimes might throw me off, it also makes me sympathize with you in some level, i'm glad we're friends. i'm also glad my babble tends to at least make you laugh. so ::hugs:: hope your situation improves.
to ashi, i'll miss you, come back soon
to cookie, please get better soon. i miss your posts even when i don't understand an iota of russian XP
i think i'm forgetting lot of someones, but maybe i actually commented on your lj so as to not send you a comment in my own entry?
so, guys, guys ::flais:: i just discovered haruna ai is a transexual.
really now, what would make you think this is nothing but a woman?
fuck, i knew japanese men make for absolutely gorgeus women, i'm kinda sad he's prettier than me. and let's not forget about the jealousness she inspires in me (btw, does anyone know if this arashi episode has been subbed and where could i watch/download it?). his/her discography in here. and if you download it, mind telling me if it's any good?
in other news, WHY HAVE I NEVER HEARD ANYONE FLAIL ABOUT THE AWESOMEST THAT IS TOKYO FRIENDS? WHY HAS NOBODY WRITTEN ANY FIC? WHY DOES NOBODY PAIR EITA WITH OTSUKA AI? GOD, I NEVER KNEW IT'D BE SO UTTERLY AWESOME AND THEIR RELATIONSHIP, OMG, I WANT RYUUJI TO BE MINE, BUT I ALSO WANT HIM TO BE WITH REI AND HAS ANYBODY ON MY FLIST WATCHED THIS SHOW? WHAT WOULD IT TAKE FOR SOMEONE TO WATCH IT SO I CAN FLAIL AND FANGIRL WITH SOMEONE ELSE? THEIR LOVE SHOULD BE EPIC, REALLY T_______________________T
and because this is getting too long, let's finish with this:
vampire!kame. so, anyone willing to write me a little something about this? someone? no? well, it was worth a shot. good night flist!
Mei-chan no Shitsuji.- .... i must say, i don't like this drama. there were hot ikemen, because hello hiro and takeru, but that's pretty much everything that hooked me up. you'll notice i didn't like this for the sole point of not remembering the character's names when i saw this merely a month ago. to me, it did not leave an impression, except for takeru. i liked takeru's character a lot and was sorely disappointed when he did not get the girl. he was funny and warm, had a short temper but he brought out a lot from mei's character, so japan, you fail for sending takeru to London. i did not like lucia-sama. mostly because she did not fit in there. she was too old for my taste, but... oh well. it's not as if i haven't seen 20 years old play highschoolers, but there was something so wrong about her in this, idek what. also, hiro's pants. i hate hiro's pants. the cut was so weird and it only looked good when he had his coat on, but everytime he took it off i was all ... :| .- i kinda liked the ep when the genius kid tried to spend a day away from the school. i quite liked the plot in that part. i also liked the ninja's character, umi or something, her story was touching.
MR. BRAIN.- klasjdlkasjd am i the only one that liked this?¡ though, well, after enjoying galileo, i'm not all that surprised, since i like this kind of plots... sometimes and far in between. and also, kimutaku \o/ what i did not like, however, is how inconclusive the ending felt. not only because of the open ending but because hirosue ryoko did not appear again after ep 1. that's what i've been more miffed about. D: i keep hoping for a special or something, because i can't help but feel as if ryoko has something to do to unravel some kind of plot in this series... though maybe that is just me.
Kami no Shizuku.- \o/ I FINALLY FINISHED IT YAY! so i can burn it now and get it out of my hd to create space =D. as i've mentioned before, i liked this in the way i like to learn new things and ::gasp:: i did learn a little about wine. though i may never taste it. at least not until i'm far far away from home where mom can't see me. i'm not going to say it enraptured me, but it was kinda funny and i can't seem to really dislike any kame drama, because, hello, this has kame in it and i'm a sucker for kame. still, it made me embarrassed to listen kame said "Mezame wo, Bacchus" or every time Issei went "Aaaaaah" or "Oooooooh". but the impression it left me with was LOL awkward hug is awkward. like, miyavi runs to shizuku and first she raises her arms and for a moment she doubts, because kame also raises his arms and she ends up hugging him by the waist and just lol about it. i kinda liked the confession, even if i think there's no future for this pairing, because even the hug was mostly like a brotherly hug. i liked kame the little tease not saying anything directly. it was quite funny. also, it surprised me how much Issei changed with a smile.
and now, what i have not finished.
Buzzer Beat.- i finally cracked under the peer pressure exuded from my flist with all those post about it... and ended up watching the ten ep hardsubbed in two days. i quite like this one. specially for cuddle-time. it's always heart warming watching all the cuddling there is in this drama. what astounds me is... when naoki hugged/kissed natsuki, he felt so detached. but when he hugged/kissed riko, it was like he was another person entirely. idk if this is thanks to the drama director and his awesome direction skills or that old rumor about yamaki/keiko dating once upon a time. it certainly adds fuel to the fire, because when i watch them, i see two people comfortable with each other. like, when naoki first kisses riko, his kiss felt like falling back into old habits. idk, i felt weird about it. they truly felt like a couple. maybe that's what throws me off, since i'm getting accustomed at japan not letting actors kiss/touch.
Kamen Rider Den-O .- just because this has 49 and two movies and idk how many specials ere i can watch behind the scenes and making offs and, have i mentioned i liked sato takeru before? he's quite cute and my favorite imagin is forever Ryuutaros, though i'm all ............... when he begins dancing and how people just appear out of nowhere dancing too. i'm also planning on watching kamen rider kiva after i finish this. and no, i can't believe it either.
what i want to watch next.
Tokyo Friends. i watched like the first 15 min. on mysoju and i liked this one a lot. so i went and downloaded the ost. i'm still looking for a harsubbed avi version of this drama, but it seems there are only softsubs out for this one ::pouts:: if someone on my flist knows where i could find it, can i have a link?
Rookies. satoh takeru. enough said.
something with hirosue ryoko in it. any reccs? i've watched summer snow, moto kare, slow dance, and that's pretty much it, but i really like her and hope someone can direct me towards something of her.
ah~ this ended up being all about drama. maybe tomorrow i'll post about how was it my first day at the Procuraduría Agraria
good dreams ::waves::
ah~ i haven't answered properly to the f-list. sorry guys, i've felt shitty since i've come back from the hospitals, so my comments sound kinda soulless. today i began commenting again, but it still lacks something, idk what.
things to do:
1. find a job
2. write something for jehols
3. comment on the f-list
i'll do the sleeping thing after i add some links. like this fabulous interview. kattun, i don't know how many times i've said it, but please, don't you ever change. ever.
and as always, only to keep track of it, a link to the newest entry of punkroxta. because pretty art is pretty. and i like the third and last ones the best. though jin babbling is pretty too.
and speaking of photos, this:
jin's face, why does it look like he's gonna cry? i know, the weirdest things get to me. credits to... idk, i took this one from akameaday or however that comm is called.
and as i'm sharing things i don't have the remote idea where i got from, here, a pretty kame gift:
have i ever told you how much i love kame on this pv? his childish wonderment and the underlying sadness and just everything. i remember watching it the first time and trying to guess who was who and keep thinking, 'something's wrong here. they feel like incomplete. who's that one again?' and then finding out jin was not there in the first place. ah~ don't you feel all </3 when watching it every time? as if something is missing. well, of course something's missing, jin was on la. but the first time i watched it i didn't know jin was missing, i didn't even know who was who at the time, but how still something still felt amiss. ah~ i'm rambling.
speaking of akame, does anyone know where can i find a fic i saw on some comment fic entry, where kame and jin study magic in hogwarts or some castle/school teaching magic and jin jinxes kame into saying the great magnificent somethingsomething jin instead of his name and kame is all grrr, you'll pay for this and then sex ensues with kame being an all out S? dunno why, but really want to reread that one.
been wondering if i should add gothicauthor as a friend. i've read some of her entries and doesn't she read awesome? but mostly cool. but i don't know if she'll add me back. i don't even know if i can ask her to add me in the first place. and in the topic of adding friends, when did camui_eiri locked her lj? mou~ all the pretty fic in her lj that i can't read anymore T______T
also thinking about writing down that pretty nigthmare about the white wolf. just, you know, to keep it somewhere as a reminder of, idk, my childish fears? because you know i'm the kind of person to reread her own entries innumerable times, just because.
totally unrelated, but even though my stomach feels kind full, i want to eat a hamburger, i blame cartoon kattun 122 with all the gian hamburgers and giant curry plates and giant noddles.
good night flist- sleep tight?
so many things have happened into fandom this month, i knew there was a reason why i loved
anyway fisrt of all, it was yamapi's birthday! yay!
second, it was domoto tsuyoshi's birthday! another yay! and as a present
it reminds me of his first works going solo, like waver and machi, and i can't believe I LIKED EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THE SONG ON BOTH THE SINGLE AND THE ALBUM. the songs are soothing and have beautiful guitar solos, the melodies are really really enjoyable, so if you have the chance listen to them. it makes me want to download his ENDLICHERI☆ENDLICHERI but i'm still kind of avoiding them because the guitar and sounds on those makes me think of carlos santana and i kinda don't enjoy them very much.
third: kanjani8 has new album! let me tell you that puzzle it's totally wonderful, god i love love love love 'half down', it's such a beautiful song, i want to cuddle it. though i'm still wondering if there are any rips of 'glorious', because klasjdklasjdasd lovely lovely lovely PV, i wanted to cuddle ryo so hard! i didn't like 'you can see' very much, nor the song nor the video, and even when i did like 'kicyu' the song, the pv fraked me out a little.
fourth: KATTUN HAS NEW ALBUM, OMG, BREAK THE RECORDS IT'S SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO FANFUCKINGTASTIC, I WANT TO MARRY IT I LOVE ALL THE SONGS, EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. AND AND AND AND AND AND KAME'S SOLO AKJSDHOASDIHASOID SUCH A SEXY SONG I LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT *_*
kame's song it's utterly enchanting, from the moment you hear the fire licking and the lasers powering up, and his voice so husky and pure sex, god. and then 'care', 'care' is the perfect song, i think is one of the main reasons i've become a jin!fan. i haven't had the time to find translations on everyone of them, but :: lovesick sighs:: i do hope to keep enjoying their songs, like for real.
drama related, SMILE, SMILE is such an appealing drama, though i'm not sure it'll make really happy to watch, but i can't help myself T_T
maki's drama, i just dl and haven't had the time to watch, rl is so hard sometimes. the same with ep 6 and 7 of kami no oshizuku, i'm wondering if i should wait till the drama is completely subbed to watch all in one go some weekend. and and and we also have ueda's debut Konkatsu, i want it subbed now! but alas, i have to wait patiently, so i'll wait.
manga related, click, god has anybody read it, it's such a emotional draining story, and the ending, god, the ending, i think i cried with that one. and as if i hadn't had enough i decided it was ok to begin skip beat! (currently on vol. 17), tough there's more comedy in this one.
mmm. i may edit this one later to add links and sparkly text later, so bye bye!
nakamaru's part still makes me lol!
it was cute that nobody got mad at kame when he made a mistake but made a fuss when everybody else did. also, the way jin called koki's name all sweet like and then dragged him to the set by force. hahaha!
i liked this pv better than one drop. i still like one drop's lyrics better though. though the lipsync lets too much to desire. ah~ the making of was really short this time, though. nande?
watching slow dance. awesome drama. i want to rewatch orange days. also, i want to rewatch you've got mail after reading the akame fic with that plot. a little grammar mistakes here and there, but all in all i really liked what the author made with it. hope she gets to write more akame!
about real life, i haven't studied for that exam. and i have one week and a half to read 5 books. i suck.... but i wonder, ne, if i should even try at all. maybe i should stop dreaming?
SNOW XPRESS. SNOW EXPRESS STUDIO VERSION. OH MY TEGO, I LOVE YOU. AND I LOVE NEWS. AND I LOVE JE.
that said, and for lack of nothing better to do, i'm going to write pointless thing that have meaning to me.
( things i want to watch/need to finish watching (i.e.: obviously drama. and the odd american show) )
( things i want to read, but i'm too lazy to write myself )
( things i want to write )
wow, this is longer than i expected. has anyone read it all?
so this time, i took an old meme fromdarkeyedwolf
Directions: Write down twelve of your favorite characters. Number the list. Then click the cut for random cracktastic questions. (Don't look at the questions before you've come up with the list or else you'll spoil it. XD)
1. Kamenachi Kazuya
2. Akanishi Jin
3. Yamashita Tomohisa
4. Ueda Tatsuya
5. Matsumoto Jun
6. Tegoshi Yuya
7. Kato Shigeaki
8. Masuda Takahisa
9. Sakurai Sho
10. Koike Teppei
11. Koyama Keiichiro
12. Ikuta Tomah
( here the questions )
well, this was interesting. and trying. and hilarious
Have I ever told you I hate going shopping?
But that's not the point. The point is, when I was ridding the bus (at rush hour, too. Everyone was going to school/wrok/nowhere) and there was this young man.
Do you remenber Koki in Real Face time? Well, I was two meters away from the mexican version of Koki!!!
They looked so alike, even at the plucked eyebrows, his nose, his lips, his build, the bouzu style.EVERYTHING! I kept wondering if I could get away with asking him if he knew by any chance about KAT-TUN. God, I wanted so much to take a photo with my cell, but Mom was beside me and that would be just awkward.
Though I still acted like a freak and kept sneaking peeks at him with a
Aaaaaah! Now I just keep thinking, "If I only could meet the mexican version of Kame or Jin or Yamapi" but I'm not much hopeful about it. I still wish it, though.
But that would be awkward, ne. Imagine him asking me "So what atracted you to me?" and I answering along the lines of "Well, you really look like one of the japanese boys I tend to fangirl about" and him being somethng like "... What?"
I almost-but-not-quite met the look alike of Tanaka Koki. I wonder if he has a friend that looks like Kame or Maru and is all guei with him. That'd be awesome.
In other things, and in the topic of gueiness, I read this old entry in kattunlove about akame rabu.
All fangirls that commented go along the lines of "They're not gay and I wouldnt want them to be gay, but OMGthefanservice, the slash the porn"
There's something I believe too. I don't think there is only friendship love (I should know, I've been over the same boat). the body language, the awkwardness, the ignoring-on-purpose, the sneaking glances and just everything akame, I think. Sometimes I'm watching some kattun clip an there's something so deep, so pure and raw and it HURTS to feel it and not knowing or, worst, that they don't know it.
I've never though about it all on the grounds of "soulmates" but it somehow fits.
Also, getting worked up for people I won't ever meet is creeping me out, so I'll stop.
There are many ways of how to expres how you feel.
It's not always the most undestandable, but the most honest.
It's raining and I think it's a day so beautiful because of it, that I can't do anything but feel soothed, calm... happy.
When it's cold, I feel lonely and when I think about pink I know something wrong or not pleasing to my eyes.
I've wondered if people has this kind of analogies (is the correct word to use?)
Anyway, I don't know, maybe I feel happy only because I read two chapters of 'Missing by a mile' before coming to school and thought Heero's an asshole and poor, poor Relena but this is so fucking funny and I've discovered that I like using the word fuck to accentuate some things. I don't live in a place where is a bad thing to say even if here is still a bad word, but I like the sound of it.
Yeah, yeah. I know I'm weird, but you must bear it. You're my diary after all.
I'm still wondering if I should up-load my stories in here. There's not much people to read them (Well, infinitesimi and tealeaves)
I'm beggining to think as a I write, though, is that a good or a bad thing?
You know, I think I can't write, eventhough yesterday I advanced one to two pages in some of my stories.
Ne, ne, I've been thinking...
I'm doing this a diary of what I read. Which would be good, but as I don't have interenet in my house, is difficult to keep track of the tittles I do read if it's not novel lenght and then only when I do really love it.
But I love much too easily when the character is funny, or complicated or is only being himself... or when the author have a wonderful plot with all the right amount of drama, or fun, or romance and...
This is a BIG parenthesis non-related with what I was talking:
(Mou, I want the OVA of Gravitation.
I LOVE YUKI EIRI...
eventhough if I do forget his real name.
-Mite, mite. I did it again. This love bussiness is complicated-)
I think my stories doesn't have plot bunnies, but are a bunch of mushy stuff.
I'd envy the way some wirtters can do it, and for that I love them... some of them... well, their writtings, because you can't love someone you don't really know...
Anyway I should be paying attention to my teacher but I HATE him. Well, not hate, because I've never really hated someone, but he's a pin in the neck and causes my headaches. So I won't pay attention, it's not as if I'm gonna use this in my life. I'm studying to be a lawyer, Im not gonna need to know about what-was-his-name-again and what he said.... Well, maybe for the exam, but that's what memory is for.
Do I sound like a little girl?
But then, I scare people when I act all serious and moody and stuff. Maybe because I do want to scare them with what I say.
-Crack an evil laugh-
I should cut this one, so