kriszeth: (Default)
ok, guys, this has been bugging me ALL.FUCKING.WEEK. AND I NEED OPINIONS ON THE TOPIC.


really guys, i kid you not, i haven't been able to get it outta my mind. and i somehow can't conform only with a"yes or no", i feel the need for reasons and meta and explanations and maybe even pics, idk. convince me (not that it would take a lot), but there's this feeling in me that wants words. lots of words about your own experience as akame fans.

past the idea, what makes you think about possibilities? do you even think there even are possibilities? if you think "kriszeth, you're delusional, they are only friends. if that"

i NEED to know. need something solid or as solid as fans' thoughts can solidify.

maybe i'm asking too much, and i don't get a lot of comments in neither of my entries, but this time i beg for comments. i want to know your thoughts on this matter, so i hope you click on the post a comment thingie and tell me what do you think/feel/believe and here is the tricky part: I ALSO WANT THE WHYS!
also, sorry for sounding so desperate, but really, this is the way my mind works, i hope you can indulge me

kriszeth: (be still my heart)
well, if you took it to mind already let me tell i suck at following my own decisions, so i'm posting now because OIAJSDOIQWE THIS IS A FUCKING AMAJIN MEME IMMA OK?

so, how mentally [in]stable am i?

01. Take your total,
02. Multiply by 4,
03. And tag 10 friends DO IT, EVERYONE!

The Mental Instability Meme.

[  ] You have screamed at an inanimate object for 'hurting you.'
[  ] You have ran into a glass/screen door.
[  ] You have jumped out of a moving vehicle.
[ x ] You have thought of something funny and laughed, and then people gave you weird looks.
[ x ] You have run into a tree/bush. i don't remember if this really happened, but knowing myself, i'm sure it happened sometime.
[ ] You have been called a blond.

[ ] You know that it IS possible to lick your elbow. i actually know this to be impossible...
[ x ] You just tried to lick your elbow. i still went and did it :l
[ x ] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star had the same melody.
[ x ] You just sang them to make sure.
[ x ] You have tripped on your own feet and fallen.
[ x ] You have choked on your own spit.

[ ] You have seen the Matrix and still don't get it.
[ ] You type with three fingers or less.
[ x ] You have accidentally caught something on fire. yeah, like, my hair :l
[  ] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose.
[ x ] You have caught yourself drooling.

[ x ] You have fallen asleep in class.
[ x ] Sometimes you just can't stop thinking.
[ x ] Sometimes when you are telling a story you forget what you are talking about.
[ ] People often shake their heads and walk away from you.
[ ] You are often told to use your 'inside voice.'

[ x ] You use your fingers to do simple math. ... sometimes /sheephish
[  ] You have eaten a bug accidentally.
[ x ] You are taking this test when you should be doing something more important.
[ x ] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and didn't realize it.
[ x ] You've looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand/pocket the whole time. e.g. picks, cards, pens, phones, money, keys etc.

[ ] You have posted bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen if you don't.
[ x ] You break a lot of things.
[ x ] You tilt your head when you're confused.
[ x ] You have fallen out of your chair before.
[ x ] When you're lying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture on the ceiling.
[ x ] The word "um" is used frequently.
[ x ] You don't know what "um" means.
[ x ] You say "what" and "huh" a lot.
[ ] You plan to use a calculator to multiply your score for this bulletin.

GRAND TOTAL: 22 x 4 = 88

does this mean i'm an average retarded person?
kriszeth: (be still my heart)

so add me?, i still don't know how to add people. fuck, idek if my flist has a witter

kriszeth: (akira down)
BUT THAT MOMENT IS TOO MUCH FAR AWAY AND I WANT A FUCKING HIATUS OUTTA LIFE. LIKE NOW. PRETTY PLEASE send me to japan to study japanese for six months, is all i ask, in fact, i won't ask for anything else for the rest of my life if i can do this-

so just when i though life was getting better someone tells me "I don't need a lawyer, I just need a secretary. Here, I'll let you watch the office and if after a year you're still here, I'll rent you one of the offices above mine and let you work as a lawyer. For now, I can pay you the equivalent to 40 US dollars per week for nine hours a day, six days a week. It's a chance, grab it"

so i have been listening to LANDS' BANDAGE on repeat. 42 times played and counting. still not feeling all that much cheered up. also i can't help but keep expecting Taylor Dayne to sing "Tell it to my heart, tell me I'm the only one, Is this really love or just a game?" IDK DON'T ASK ME WHY.

has no relation with anything i've said above, but here, have a pretty pic of the excedingly handsome man that is really excidently handsome and i don't flail enough about him in here

have nothing else to say, so i'll go to sulk away now


kriszeth: (Default)
i kinda suck at being an lj friend, but you knew that already. so, late happy bithday to [ profile] ceathair . hope it was an awesome day for you.

in the topic of birthdays, today's [ profile] hilaryscribbles birthday, so happy birthday to you too ::claps enthusiastically::. we haven't talked much, but the little we have commented on each other has been fun. and, ey! i've managed to greet you on your actual birthday! :)

so, um, update.

what's gone wrong this week:

monday. i got stomach sick thanks to a late dinner consisting on three tacos,
tuesday. i fell on the bathroom and now sport a fading bruise in my foot that hurts everytime i put on my shoes.
wednesday. some idiot gave permission to have a fucking grupero dance that gave into 3 fucking in the morning of the next day. i wanted to kill someone for it (in fact, still want to), since i was just getting my internal clock into proper sleep hours.
thursday. the headache from hell.
friday. my eyes itch and are tired as hell. too many hours online and lack of sleep-
also, not into any particular day, but i didn't get a call from the bank so i guess i didn't get that job. so now i have two options left: a. take any job available whatever the pay and/or kind of job. this way, i won't have any experience on my field, but i'll get money, however little it'd be. b. beg for an internship and not receive any pay whatsoever but get work experience for at least two years.

what's gone passable this week:
sadly, this excerpt will be only filled with fandom centered  things.
1. jin's awesome naked pics. the first time i saw them, i was "... hot". the second time i saw them i was "... i kinda what to see his front". and then i read some entry's comments about how jin fans were all 'i don't like jin anymore because he did naked photos with someone that is not me' (or so it sounded) and i was between "don't i wish i had that body so jin could choose me to pose nude<s>above</s> with him?" and "... fuck. i hate it when i get overly aware of how i don't have the sculptural body of a model" and then "... what are these girls on? not liking jin anymore just because of this? how old are they?" so i decided to be all "...  :| " about it. i'm still gonna download the hq version either way.
i also found this awesome post with awesome naked. i loled at yamapi's naked pics. a lot. oh, the awkward.
2. i'm downloading kamen rider den-o. and enjoying it. a lot. i'm not sure if this is good or bad, so let's got with :| again.
3. been rekindling myself with my old fandoms, since akame has been slow and far in between, like yuffentine and edxwinry. it's been two years since i kinda abandoned them, so a lot of the old school writers (2006-ish) finally finished those long, long, looooong fics with awesome characterization i gushed about. which is the reason why my eyes itch and are sunken and kinda red.

p.s. i haven't written anything for je-hols. actually, i'm in such a depression that i'm actually wondering if i should just give up already

kriszeth: (Default)

so, um, yeah, anybody want to make me feel better and write something with this in mind?
you know your inner akame fan girl is just dying too, y/y?
and it help soothe my moodiness and inner angry monster
pretty please?

ps. if you want the doujin you can download here.
and don't forget to comment and thank our lovely lovely scanlators
kriszeth: (christmas on my own)
but i still feel all screwed up from the hospital. and i wasn't the one being operated on, but i had to sleep on a car for three days without taking a bath or changing my clothes. at least i had my pillows with me.

i hate hospitals. well, i've never been admitted into one, but i don't see much point into getting treatment for chronic illnesses. when i think like this, "ah~ i'm probably a horrible person, aren't i?" but being the one taking care of patients is as worse or maybe a little more than being ill. an illness can break or make a person, but those around him, how should they act?

if my father wants so much to live, why have i never found the point of it? living really is tiring.

am i a bad person?

listening to mother talk of all the things father did when they were younger, i fell, "ah~ certainly, if he wasn't my father i would hate him. for sure"

i don't want to ever get married, or a boyfriend. most of the time, i don't really want friends either, but then there are those bouts of loneliness i have to bear with. "it was my own decision" i think at those times "i shouldn't begrudge them then" and i get drunk on internet.

"would i ever be free? i don't want to have to take care of some else for the rest of my life" i sya, but sometimes, don't i wish to be with someone too? i'm a hypocrite

will time really erase all this feeling. do i want it to? can i ever be happy? would i ever get away from all these? will i regret levaing mom alone?
kriszeth: (Default)
so, first go here and first listen to the song in the post and then read my comments about it (they're the first ones, so there's no way to get lost) and then, if you're interested, please help me write that fic because it's amazing but i can't do it on my own and i hate not being able to ever finish something and i really want it and please, please, please

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kriszeth: (Default)
so, you know this made think a lot about how bad a lj friend i tend to be and i was kind of wondering if people really read what i write here.

so..... um, i kinda want to change that. i probably friended you all, and i'm sorry, because i terribly lose track of people and things and, well, life in general is an excuse, though it shouldn't be and---- THE POINT IS, i want to try and know about those who read my lj. i know i friended you and maybe lots of people are gonna get mad for this, but i really don't remember the exact reason, though i know it is because of fandom.

as i answered [ profile] strascina , i suck at remembering people i tend to forget the people i ask to friend me so when they finally do, i don't know why they are friending me. most of the time. so, um, yeah, if whoever reads this wants to defriend me... i most probably wont notice, buuuuuuut, i want to notice. from now on, i mean.

sorry for the babble, i'm totally out of it.

so, if you read this, and it didn't make you hate me or defriend me, can we get to know each other? this is terribly impolite since i'm the one supposed to be interested in you all, but if you still want to give me the chance, leave a little something in hereabout yourself, what you like, who you are or something and i'll try and pay more attention to your post! this way, i get to know you and you get horribly typed comments.

it's not much what i can offer, but at least we'll become friends. or something.

so, uh, yeah, comment away! if, you know, you hadn't removed me from your flist by now   u.u'


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