kriszeth: (christmas on my own)
so lately, all my dreams seem to have some things in common:

a. old houses/castles with a bazillion stone stairs that end up nowhere up up and far away with lots of undergrowth and bushes and tress surrounding me. AND I HAVE TO GO UP THEM, DAMNIT

b. the magistrate giving me MORE WORK

c. horses

somehow, i miss the zombie nightmares :\
kriszeth: (the wind whispers to me your name)
you'd think that after years of munching on cookies instead of having a proper breakfast would make me sick of the. well, you think wrong. every time i see someone eating a cookie i want one too, no matter the kind. except maybe walnut's one. even chocolate ones make me salivate DDD:

in other news, i didn't get to enter the piano classes since the course was already full and it'll open again until next year. pondering if i should enter the chorus and vocalization one.

reading akame mushy stuff and diving back into pokemon fic since CCS fandom was full of angst and i don't think i have the mind frame to try full metal alchemist, though i'm pondering FFVII too.

i want to watch some drama. i don't know what drama to watch. i need mindless, funny and happy ending drama. any reccs?

currently reading dance dance dance by Haruki Murakami. do not expect for a review. finished the first book on the dresden files collection. i love spike's voice.

having lost of weird dreams lately.

p.s. no one got back at me about that writing proposal =(

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May. 10th, 2010 09:53 am
kriszeth: (feel the sea breeze)
sometimes i think my writing was better before, so here, some samples translated from spanish since i wanna trash all the old papers in my room now that summer hotness is smoldering me. and not in a good je way.


1. The poem
Pain
Sometimes the pain is carved too deep.
No one knows what to do or how to do it,
but in spite of everything, they just wait.
They hope not having to face that pain,
even though that pain is theirs
they rather ignore it.
Forget that they ever felt it,
they give it their back and abandon it
even when their tears beg them to look back.
they just leave, step by step they go away.
And in time they forget they felt it once.
Forget that it was theirs and it hurt them.
Forget to keep on living.
And when they think that it doesn't matter anymore,
when the think they can't feel it anymore,
when the tears have already dried,
they look back only to see the blood their wounds have spilled.
But the blood is still fresh,
the wound keeps on bleeding
and the tears begin anew,
the pain is felt once again
and sometimes even stronger.
because when they tried to bury that pain
they just carved the wounds deeper.

3. The song (or i don't even remember the tune anymore)
Play for me
I remember that first melody
how it became a caress to my damaged soul.
It meant love, someone said, and I lost control.
I didn't want you to love me but I revealed in it.

I remember the second one. my sadness and your pain,
the way your tears became mine
and how I just run away.
You threw the illusion that kept me going,
but even so...

I'll sing for you to play for me
I promise I'll do anything you ask of me.
So please, play for me to sing for you.
'Cause even if I don't believe in happily ever after
we'll still have this moment
                    Promise you'll play for me
There's something to say about hope.
It's the most cruelest of feelings I've ever known.
But still, it'll shred me to pieces iif i ever lose it.
                   So play for me.

I'm aware we haven't known each other for long
but I can't let you forget me already.
So long I have thought this time will last forever.
That is already enough

That's why I'll sing for you

'Cause even if I don't accept it I'm yours
more than I'm willing to admit, so...

Please, play for me to sing for you
I beg you, don't ever love anyone else
because I'm selfish like that

And tomorrow I will sing.
And tomorrow you will play.
To fill again a sleepless night.
To overcome another end

kriszeth: (Default)
so, last week i finally watched spirit. you know, the dreamworks movie told from a horse's point of view. i could only think about how much spirit reminded me of jin.and how rain was kame and how the indian, little creek, was so yamapi and of course the colonel would be johnny, only hotter and younger and taller and maybe it couldn't be johnny after all. but all stories need a villain.

i also was all, oijdjuewkj, i'm a deranged akame fangirl, why jennipher, why? T_______________T but couldn't stop casting je boys as horses/indians/cadets. i.am.so.screwed. specially since i could only think about how much i wanted that je!spirit fic with jin starring as a horse, and guys, it would be perfect. perfect i tell you.

fml.

in other news, yay, week off! \o/ and just because i can YAY, ASHI'S FIC IS AWESOME! \o/

not really much to say, really. just wanted to update because i want to make myself write again. i haven't begun writing on my notebook. i want to wait until april to begin as to have a sense of time, since i don't really like to put dates on my entries. i'm weird like that, must explain why my room is always a disaster, but i'm all bleh right now. ::looks around at the mess and cringes at thinking she has to clean. someday. preferably soon, but not now::

how's everyone doing, btw? i'm waiting impatiently for blue-orbs to update In his care. so want it now. i'm gonna take my pc to fix. well, the other one. and i want a net book, but must save money for it. i have only half of it.kjsdioqw, why so expensive?

and as i am random, have you read this? i'm kinda miffed about it. not because of kame being likely a homosexual, but because of kusano and that josh guy's dickness. i want to smack them real hard, dunno why.

thinking about that, i've discovered i'm freakishly attracted to gay men, which does not spells a good outlook in my relationship, but i can't help it guys! ::whines:: i mean, let's take a looks at my most favorite singers in the entire world.

of gay singers that made me want in his pants. except for the first one.. also, skip if you don't undesrtand or care for spanish songs. )


really, sometimes i wish i was born a man if only to make a pass at some of this guys.

also, there are missing the gay english singers i am in love with. we will skip the japanese, since the title of this journal says enough about it.

and to finish this entry a gift of kame:


kjdioqwjeioqw, i am really screwed.
kriszeth: (Default)
so before i go all philo on you, let me share this thing i found somewhere in the net and made me LOL the three times i stumbled upon it





have nothing else to say


kriszeth: (akira down)
BUT THAT MOMENT IS TOO MUCH FAR AWAY AND I WANT A FUCKING HIATUS OUTTA LIFE. LIKE NOW. PRETTY PLEASE send me to japan to study japanese for six months, is all i ask, in fact, i won't ask for anything else for the rest of my life if i can do this-

so just when i though life was getting better someone tells me "I don't need a lawyer, I just need a secretary. Here, I'll let you watch the office and if after a year you're still here, I'll rent you one of the offices above mine and let you work as a lawyer. For now, I can pay you the equivalent to 40 US dollars per week for nine hours a day, six days a week. It's a chance, grab it"

so i have been listening to LANDS' BANDAGE on repeat. 42 times played and counting. still not feeling all that much cheered up. also i can't help but keep expecting Taylor Dayne to sing "Tell it to my heart, tell me I'm the only one, Is this really love or just a game?" IDK DON'T ASK ME WHY.

has no relation with anything i've said above, but here, have a pretty pic of the excedingly handsome man that is really excidently handsome and i don't flail enough about him in here




have nothing else to say, so i'll go to sulk away now









P.S [profile] puffie_hanchan PLEASE FORGIVE ME FOR NOT HAVING BEEN LEAVING COMMENTS ON YOUR NEW FIC, BUT I ALWAYS END UP READING IT FIVE MINUTES BEFORE I HAVE TO GO TO MY INTERNSHIP IN THE MORNING, BUT ILOVEIT,PLEASEDON'TSTOPWRITING,THANKSFORSHARING. /breaths again



kriszeth: (akira down)
so, first of all let's welcome [profile] silver_ryu and [livejournal.com profile] grapewhine to the flist yo!, my new trophies additions after these two comment threads, respectively.

as some of you may have noticed, i tend to send comments in my post since i'm too lazy to go and reply on your entries, so please bear with me. and if you don't like it, ell and i'll remove you from here or something

to [profile] silver_ryu , i knew there was a reason why i feared your lj, even if it's just your work related one. i ended up being all @w@ after i went to see who was [livejournal.com profile] deltadedirac. also, i just noticed you're from spain. así que tambien hablas español?

to [livejournal.com profile] grapewhine , i went and decided to steal this link outta your lj because jin quotes are awesome. also, hope your familiar situation gets better (though i'm not sure what was the problem), and if not, ey! as you said, there's always the option of moving out. ::wink, wink::

to [livejournal.com profile] koneho , you write like this and expect me to believe your normal? sorry, but not happening. ok, leaving that aside, i tend to forget that outside the internet people have real normal lives, not that you're abnormal or something. most of your post are cheery, so reading a post about your current rl problems is what threw me off. with this i'm not saying i'm gonna defriend you or anything, because those actually make me learn something about the real you, and even when it sometimes might throw me off, it also makes me sympathize with you in some level, i'm glad we're friends. i'm also glad my babble tends to at least make you laugh. so ::hugs:: hope your situation improves.

to ashi, i'll miss you, come back soon and bring lots of fic XP ::is bricked::.

to cookie, please get better soon. i miss your posts even when i don't understand an iota of russian XP

i think i'm forgetting lot of someones, but maybe i actually commented on your lj so as to not send you a comment in my own entry?

so, guys, guys ::flais:: i just discovered haruna ai is a transexual.

 

really now, what would make you think this is nothing but a woman?

       

fuck, i knew japanese men make for absolutely gorgeus women, i'm kinda sad he's prettier than me. and let's not forget about the jealousness she inspires in me (btw, does anyone know if this arashi episode has been subbed and where could i watch/download it?). his/her discography in here. and if you download it, mind telling me if it's any good?

in other news, WHY HAVE I NEVER HEARD ANYONE FLAIL ABOUT THE AWESOMEST THAT IS TOKYO FRIENDS? WHY HAS NOBODY WRITTEN ANY FIC? WHY DOES NOBODY PAIR EITA WITH OTSUKA AI? GOD, I NEVER KNEW IT'D BE SO UTTERLY AWESOME AND THEIR RELATIONSHIP, OMG, I WANT RYUUJI TO BE MINE, BUT I ALSO WANT HIM TO BE WITH REI AND HAS ANYBODY ON MY FLIST WATCHED THIS SHOW? WHAT WOULD IT TAKE FOR SOMEONE TO WATCH IT SO I CAN FLAIL AND FANGIRL WITH SOMEONE ELSE? THEIR LOVE SHOULD BE EPIC, REALLY  T_______________________T

and because this is getting too long, let's finish with this:


credit:[livejournal.com profile] chrisrenheb

vampire!kame. so, anyone willing to write me a little something about this? someone? no? well, it was worth a shot. good night flist!

kriszeth: (be still my heart)


 


...

shit.

i think i just fell in love with Otsuka Ai

and just because i can, piano version of the same song
kriszeth: (Default)
i kinda suck at being an lj friend, but you knew that already. so, late happy bithday to [livejournal.com profile] ceathair . hope it was an awesome day for you.

in the topic of birthdays, today's [livejournal.com profile] hilaryscribbles birthday, so happy birthday to you too ::claps enthusiastically::. we haven't talked much, but the little we have commented on each other has been fun. and, ey! i've managed to greet you on your actual birthday! :)

so, um, update.

what's gone wrong this week:

monday. i got stomach sick thanks to a late dinner consisting on three tacos,
tuesday. i fell on the bathroom and now sport a fading bruise in my foot that hurts everytime i put on my shoes.
wednesday. some idiot gave permission to have a fucking grupero dance that gave into 3 fucking in the morning of the next day. i wanted to kill someone for it (in fact, still want to), since i was just getting my internal clock into proper sleep hours.
thursday. the headache from hell.
friday. my eyes itch and are tired as hell. too many hours online and lack of sleep-
also, not into any particular day, but i didn't get a call from the bank so i guess i didn't get that job. so now i have two options left: a. take any job available whatever the pay and/or kind of job. this way, i won't have any experience on my field, but i'll get money, however little it'd be. b. beg for an internship and not receive any pay whatsoever but get work experience for at least two years.

what's gone passable this week:
sadly, this excerpt will be only filled with fandom centered  things.
1. jin's awesome naked pics. the first time i saw them, i was "... hot". the second time i saw them i was "... i kinda what to see his front". and then i read some entry's comments about how jin fans were all 'i don't like jin anymore because he did naked photos with someone that is not me' (or so it sounded) and i was between "don't i wish i had that body so jin could choose me to pose nude<s>above</s> with him?" and "... fuck. i hate it when i get overly aware of how i don't have the sculptural body of a model" and then "... what are these girls on? not liking jin anymore just because of this? how old are they?" so i decided to be all "...  :| " about it. i'm still gonna download the hq version either way.
i also found this awesome post with awesome naked. i loled at yamapi's naked pics. a lot. oh, the awkward.
2. i'm downloading kamen rider den-o. and enjoying it. a lot. i'm not sure if this is good or bad, so let's got with :| again.
3. been rekindling myself with my old fandoms, since akame has been slow and far in between, like yuffentine and edxwinry. it's been two years since i kinda abandoned them, so a lot of the old school writers (2006-ish) finally finished those long, long, looooong fics with awesome characterization i gushed about. which is the reason why my eyes itch and are sunken and kinda red.

p.s. i haven't written anything for je-hols. actually, i'm in such a depression that i'm actually wondering if i should just give up already



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