i joined an ARC group and i received this book called the phantom light : a phantoms novella and now i have to review it before june 12th but the thing is, i did not like this book. how honest should i be when reviewing it? the ARC group is supposed to give it exposure, but i feel mean when i think what this book made me feel.
here's what i got so far for the review and any help will be welcome into making it sound less mean, because i am actually going to give it 2 stars on goodreads.
"i received this book as an ARC copy for my honest review.
written in 1st pov, we embark into valerie's very confusing journey to choose wether she, as a newly minted spirit, decides to move onto the after life or stay in the cold, grey world she finds herself awakening after dying in a car crash (this in a misguided attempt to convince her little sister it was not her fault she's dead).
the protagonist is a teenager and it shows, especially since after maybe accepting she's dead, valerie can't help but keep pointing out how hot is the grim reaper chosen to guide her spirit or how she keeps saying everything she ever does, is because how stubborn everyone in her life has told her she is.
i actually think it'd be interesting to read after you met the characters in the main story, learning about the origins of a character you've already fallen in love with, but as a stand alone or to read before the first novel, it feels pretty lacking.
though it has an interesting premise, it doesn't deliver, wether it is because how annoyingly repetitive valerie's voice is or that it really has no plot, i don't know."
so, my workplace is a viper's nest and everyone kinda hates everyone, but we have to see each other every day like a dysfunctional family and everyone talks behind each others back. with this backstory though, we have the asshole everyone agrees is just a shitty human being of an asshole. he's racist, misogynist, hypocrite, rude, arrogant, and in general a piece of shit.
here's the thing that astounds me, though. because the woman who sits in the cubicle besides me hates the asshole, actually they don't like each other and talk bad about the other and keep bullying each other ( the asshole is pretty much a dick to everyone, but she is her main target), BUT SHE KEEPS CONFIDING IN HIM ALL HER LIFE TROUBLES. like, she actually asks him what's his opinion on her troubles and what could she do.
this because her workplace BFF stopped talking to her and she doesn't tell me about her troubles (not that i want her to tell me, but...), because, and i quote, she feels like i will only nag her and also because i never tell her anything about myself.
i talking about an independent 38 year old woman that studied law, with a secure job and a teenage daughter and a boyfriend, scared about that i, a 31 year old single woman who still lives with her parents, would nag her, as if i could have any reason to nag her about her life choices, but why, oh why, would someone willingly trust an asshole who keeps putting her down with racist and misogynist comments all day long with all her life troubles because she feels lonely at work? doesn't she have friends she can confide in outside this place?
like, am i wrong to be amazed and confused about it? i just don't get it.
jin's enthusiasm about it is endearing. and kinda blank faced, but beggars can't be choosers.
anyway, dw layouts depress me, which is part of the reason why i haven't really attached myself to it and i can't for the life of me make heads or tails of instructions to prettify this place. and not to lose the habit, i'm here to ask if anyone knows of a place to snack some pretty kattun/kame/jin
in other non-news, i've noticed i tend to bemoan and whine about the state of my messy room and my ability to procrastinate when cleaning it. activity in which i'm partaking right now, so, for lack of a plus/paid account i can't do a poll, but options on witty tags for it (because of course you're interested how often i
btw, does anyone here have a jposuki account? i just gone one myself and i'm pretty scared they're gonna kick me out. so i have a ratio watch of 0.17, uploaded like 160 kb and downloaded around 850 kb, less than to weeks on the forum and 4gb behind before ratio watch was supposed to kick in. did i cross some limit?
p.s. mood emoticons on dw suck too DDDD:
The first ten people to comment in this post get to request that I write a drabble of any pairing/character of their choosing. In return, they have to post this in their journal, regardless of their ability level. If you absolutely can't write, maybe find a creative alternative?
so, yeah, prompt away?
a. old houses/castles with a bazillion stone stairs that end up nowhere up up and far away with lots of undergrowth and bushes and tress surrounding me. AND I HAVE TO GO UP THEM, DAMNIT
b. the magistrate giving me MORE WORK
somehow, i miss the zombie nightmares :\
in other news, i didn't get to enter the piano classes since the course was already full and it'll open again until next year. pondering if i should enter the chorus and vocalization one.
reading akame mushy stuff and diving back into pokemon fic since CCS fandom was full of angst and i don't think i have the mind frame to try full metal alchemist, though i'm pondering FFVII too.
i want to watch some drama. i don't know what drama to watch. i need mindless, funny and happy ending drama. any reccs?
currently reading dance dance dance by Haruki Murakami. do not expect for a review. finished the first book on the dresden files collection. i love spike's voice.
having lost of weird dreams lately.
p.s. no one got back at me about that writing proposal =(
me + free time = depression
so, now i'm asking if someone wants to make a collab fic with me. i even have a rough plot (or a million), or if you want we can co-write any idea you have. i guess i just want to write but i don't have the patience or attention span required to do it on my own, so pondering if someone wants to write with me something. i'm not the best writer there is in the world, but.... um, i'm angsty?
which may not motivate a lot of people to stick with me through writing sessions :|
either way, if you're interested, comment here. or PM me. or hit me at email@example.com (even if you don't see me online i most probably am. i'm just all ninja about it and hiding from unwanted real life people)
but this fear, this terror, i don't know where it came from or the reasons for its origins. it's not the kind of terror that makes your heart beat rise, but more the kind that stops everything, the one that leaves you cold an shaken and faux paralyzed.
what was i really afraid of? of being blamed for a careless action? what made me afraid? even when in my mind i was all "great, now he's going to blame me for it", sarcastic and kind of indifferent, b, it was something deeper, something darker. it was like reaching out your hand into the fire, only the fire is a kind of hatred, of spitefulness, of vindictiveness, of the will to hurt and destroy, the core of human ill feelings.
i was afraid to be burn and be blamed and condemned.
or maybe i was afraid of just losing my job. which is ridiculous, because it was not something so irreparable as to fire me just for something so inane.
but it's not the first time and that's what makes it all the more terrible.
GUYS, DO YOU THINK KAME AND JIN HAVE HAD SEX IN REAL LIFE?????????!!!!!!
really guys, i kid you not, i haven't been able to get it outta my mind. and i somehow can't conform only with a"yes or no", i feel the need for reasons and meta and explanations and maybe even pics, idk. convince me (not that it would take a lot), but there's this feeling in me that wants words. lots of words about your own experience as akame fans.
past the idea, what makes you think about possibilities? do you even think there even are possibilities? if you think "kriszeth, you're delusional, they are only friends. if that"
i NEED to know. need something solid or as solid as fans' thoughts can solidify.
maybe i'm asking too much, and i don't get a lot of comments in neither of my entries, but this time i beg for comments. i want to know your thoughts on this matter, so i hope you click on the post a comment thingie and tell me what do you think/feel/believe and here is the tricky part: I ALSO WANT THE WHYS!
also, sorry for sounding so desperate, but really, this is the way my mind works, i hope you can indulge me
either way, in the spirit of hiatus i'm totally forsaking for the sake of, well, boredom, does people remember my excited tweets/post about renting a box at the post office for international mail i was so gonna get? well, thanks to the fucking up my dear computer decided to throw at me i forgot to mention that as i am currently saving to buy a new one, the renting of the box is getting delayed.
which means, i won't have money
so currently i'm poor and overworked but getting now paid OH GOD, FUCK YEAH \O/ I AM HAPPY YAY
so er, to those who wait for mail from me, please be patient. i promise to send those letter by new year, i aswear. in the meantime, i'm still recollecting addresses, so please pm me those who want mail from me.
that said, i am sorry to making all of those who gave their addresses wait m(_ _)m
so, how mentally [in]stable am i?
01. Take your total,
02. Multiply by 4,
And tag 10 friendsDO IT, EVERYONE!
The Mental Instability Meme.
[ ] You have screamed at an inanimate object for 'hurting you.'
[ ] You have ran into a glass/screen door.
[ ] You have jumped out of a moving vehicle.
[ x ] You have thought of something funny and laughed, and then people gave you weird looks.
[ x ] You have run into a tree/bush. i don't remember if this really happened, but knowing myself, i'm sure it happened sometime.
[ ] You have been called a blond.
[ ] You know that it IS possible to lick your elbow. i actually know this to be impossible...
[ x ] You just tried to lick your elbow. i still went and did it :l
[ x ] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star had the same melody.
[ x ] You just sang them to make sure.
[ x ] You have tripped on your own feet and fallen.
[ x ] You have choked on your own spit.
[ ] You have seen the Matrix and still don't get it.
[ ] You type with three fingers or less.
[ x ] You have accidentally caught something on fire. yeah, like, my hair :l
[ ] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose.
[ x ] You have caught yourself drooling.
[ x ] You have fallen asleep in class.
[ x ] Sometimes you just can't stop thinking.
[ x ] Sometimes when you are telling a story you forget what you are talking about.
[ ] People often shake their heads and walk away from you.
[ ] You are often told to use your 'inside voice.'
[ x ] You use your fingers to do simple math. ... sometimes /sheephish
[ ] You have eaten a bug accidentally.
[ x ] You are taking this test when you should be doing something more important.
[ x ] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and didn't realize it.
[ x ] You've looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand/pocket the whole time. e.g. picks, cards, pens, phones, money, keys etc.
[ ] You have posted bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen if you don't.
[ x ] You break a lot of things.
[ x ] You tilt your head when you're confused.
[ x ] You have fallen out of your chair before.
[ x ] When you're lying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture on the ceiling.
[ x ] The word "um" is used frequently.
[ x ] You don't know what "um" means.
[ x ] You say "what" and "huh" a lot.
[ ] You plan to use a calculator to multiply your score for this bulletin.
GRAND TOTAL: 22 x 4 = 88
does this mean i'm an average retarded person?
so, i guess this is a hiatus announcement or something.
ALSO, I JUST WANT TO PUT THIS HERE SO PEOPLE SEE IT AND TAKE IT INTO ACCOUNT AND MAYBE MIGHT BE COULD BE, A KIND SOUL DECIDES TO WRITE IT, PLEASE ;A;
PLEASE SOMEONE WRITE ME INTERN!AKAME IN A PLOT ALIKE TO CODE BLUE SECOND SEASON WITH LOTS OF INTROSPECTION AND HUMAN FEELINGS AND DRAMA AND A HAPPY ENDING, PLEASE. <s>preaz to remember that in akame fandom more is always less [is shot]</s>
so, that said. hiatus, see you back with updates on my life[snort]. i'm sure lotsa people will defriend =(
even so, let me tell you i'll still be stalking you all via my phone. only i won't be able to comment lots >___<
see ya soon, girls. if there is someone amazing in fandom, please leave a link. i'll check it, for rearu.
i'm still kinda blank faced about the jin thing that must not be named less i start bawling, only i can't and that makes it all the more ;_______;
and i'm kinda miffed you know, because i had kinda planned how to spend my two week vacation only that the day i got outta court SOMEONE DECIDES TO ANNOUNCE HE WON'T BE COMING BACK TO KATTUN, COULDN'T YOU AT LEAST HAVE WAITED UNTIL WORK WAS BURYING ME UNDER PAPERWORK TO DO IT, DAMNIT!!!!
but that is not here not there. i don't intend to make this entry all woe-is-me, because a lot of people have already done it and i think gothicauthor explained the practical part of all this better than anyone can ever do it here.
either way, the point is guys i'm getting a box at the post office and i intend to get my money worth back, so people who want to be penpals with me, please to PM your address =D
yes, i put the point in bold letters so as to make you read it.
A. Upon receiving this tag, immediately perform a screencapture of your desktop. It is best that no icons will be deleted before the screen capture so as to add to the element of fun.
B. Post the picture in your blog. You can also give a short explanation on the look of your desktop just below it if you want. You can explain why you preferred such look or why is it full of icons. Things like that.
C. Tag five of your friends.
so, um yeah. i have no icons in my desktop and no, i'm not cheating. i really don't like them getting in the way of my pretty kame wallpapers. sometimes i have akame too. or jin alone. but mostly kame. if you're wondering, no, this is not mine. idr who made it though <winces> i'm really bad at giving credit. please to forgive me awesome graphics OTZ.
the reason why i choose this wallpaper is because after seeing it come up in my flist inner was "my feelings made into a sizable wallpaper with pretty hot asian obsession, me wants" so i grabbed it and put it on my desktop as a point. what that point is exactly i'm not sure. only my feelings portrayed by a hot asian male. it even has the same mantra i've been screaming for years in my darkest moments! ... or, you know, something.
as i don't have icon on desktop to tarnish the amazing view, you'll notice i have a lot of shortcuts to my most used applications on the toolbar. it makes it easier since i can change the icons to differentiate. as previously stated i have the olive green version of windows which is so much more pleasant than the lunawhatchamacallit blue one.
so, tagging, ok. i choose <s>pikachu!</s> koneho akanishe pipsqueaks flamesword and silver_ryu but if you don't it's cool too.
now i'll go turn off bro's pc while mine turns off too.
watch-series.com as of lately, coz i've been catching up with old american series i never finished watching. currently on angel season four, and boy hasn't that series had 360° turns every other episode.
2) If you could pick one KAT-TUN song to be the anthem of your life right now, which song would it be?
i totally went and looked up the translation for their lyrics and i'm between lost and utaitsuzukeru toki, only they're too hopeful for what i'm feeling at the moment. which you can understand if you read my broken entry before this one. idk, sometimes i don't even want to sing anymore, which is actually when i am in my darkest times, so maybe utaitsuzukeru toki, since to me, the feel of singing is pretty important to show i actually i'm fine. when i can't bring myself to sing, that's when i truly know i'm fucked.
3) Stupidest fashion trend you've ever seen?
ah~ i'm quite unfashioned, so i really wouldn't know what fashion is even if it bites me in the ass, so hopeless there love.
4) What's your favourite colour?
contrary to what my wardrobe might tell you, it's green. don let my emo choosing in clothes confuse you
5) What's one of the things that turn you off to a guy?
conceitedness without awesome treats to pull it off. i mean, sometimes men are jerks but at least they have something to back up that conceit. there are guys though that believe themselves god's unique gift to the world but are complete dumb asses than only had a good struck of luck. i see one daily and my only response to him is to ignore him and that pisses him off a lot, but i actually feel revulsion to that kind of people.
i mean i've resorted to embroidering to pass the time. finished a couple of books that had been sitting in my hard drive for a while now. been doodling a lot and the drawings are so abstractedly sad and ominously desperate.
my choice of reading didn't help much in the beginning. i mean, i chose my sister's keeper by jodi picoult. let me tell you the characters are really interesting and the constant changing in pov made them even more lively. still, fuck it but that's my life right there. the problems i live with everyday inside my family, then tension, death hanging all over the house and the stubbornness and all that horrible mix of negative feelings drowning us all. i hated the book but i couldn't detach myself from it. it was quite masochistic.
and so, yeah. my father has chronic renal failure ever since six years ago or something like that and it has been fucking hell in my house since we found out about it. my brother left college to help maintain the family business afloat so me and my younger brother could finish a career and then after i finish i lost the chance to get a couple jobs because i was always at the hospital in another city and so two years have passed and i'm still unemployed, living with my parents and failing driving classes spectacularly.
and now i don't even remember my rant anymore since mom called to say something she never did and it's quite likely she'll do it again in some minutes, so i'm cutting this here.